Click to Listen to Love Is Leaving
anyways, too lazy to read the Malcom X and Souls of Black Folk books for Sherrill [cool last name..double r double l] so I'm guessin that I'm just blogging. The song up there is by BBMak [again.]. I'm guessing that I listen to them too much. but then again, their albumns are at the top of my playlist and I'm not able to click anywhere else because their songs are just SO ADDICTIVE. >< I guess I'm more into pop music again..NOO!! must get back into PUNKROCK/POPROCK genre. I feel so ..ecky.
caution: contains bad language from this point on. If you don't want to feel offended get the ...out. thank you. see the little [x] on the corner? CLICK IT.
Anyways, today was the great Sweep for Wash. God, how much did I hate it? Words fail me. I hated the whole freaking thing, from the beginning to the end. Especially the end... I was so fucking pissed off.
People didn't do CRAP. So much for cleaning eh? Come back for the shit when we go back UP the hill. Shit, if you see it now, why do you not just PICK THE DAMN THING UP and put it in your bag? God, a piece of paper is not going to break your fucking back. Okay, after that I was already kinda mad at people.
Then after a long time, Kenneth got [haha got? more like dragged] me, benton and G to help him clean up. Jackie and Chut came along and I was happy for a minute because hey, I got people I actually like to work with. but then they just stood around and FUCKING TALKED. sure, they swepped, but for like 1 minute at trash? then they just FUCKING stood around and did SHIT. I understand why the leaders were so pissed off today. Nobody does fucking crap but stand around and talk. So me and Kenneth just went down the street and cleaned up trash by ourselves.
The most annoying thing came after we came back up. Benton and somebody else, forgot, said that they were going to go down the street and clean up. HOLY FUCKING G*D. I just wanted to hit him [for the first time since I knew him] so fucking hard. WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU THINK WE JUST FUCKING DID? I really yelled at him. then he said he was going to "perfect it". I just go so pissed off that I took a rock and threw it and it hit a side of a car. I was aiming for the sidewalk but it bounced.
I couldn't stand the shit anymore and just fucking threw my crap on the side of the sidewalk and sat down. After a while, just looking at people just made me even madder. So I decieded I needed air or else I was going to punch something. [like a car.]So I went down to Cala and bought food and ate some on the way back. I was a pissy mood for the rest of the day. I eventually spoke at them after ignoring most of them, but I wasn't as happy as I started out. Remind me to work with people who I don't know the next time. Wait, cross that there will NEVER EVER be a next time. I almost wanted to punch the wall , but it wasn't worth it.
Tommorow MUST get better. If it is just a repeat of today, I'm just going to leave early. There isn't a single reason for me to stay and the only reason I stayed today was because I had to sign out. If I didn't have to do that, I would've just left to go home when I went to Cala. I don't have to take this crap.
To the people reading this and if it happened to be you that I was pissed off at:
Screw apologizing to you folks. If you read my post above you will know that I'm right in a sense. I might've not be justified in yelling at you, but what you people did [or lack of] can really set somebody like me off. If you planned to just come here and socialize, go right ahead but atleast be doing SOMETHING while you're socializing. You might think I'm taking things too seriously, and maybe I am, but that doesn't mean that what YOU are doing is CORRECT. If you wanted to have fun, then have your FUCKING fun AFTER the damn clean up. Just think, how would you feel if you had to do work while others didn't? And for no reason?
If you think I'm being difficult, well so are YOU. The only reason I'm typing this out is because I feel like having people understand why the FUCK I was so mad today, and that there was a REASON. If you know me AT ALL, you would know that I ALWAYS HAVE A REASON when I'm mad at people. I NEVER get mad at somebody for no reason. I'm not apologizing for this post and I will NOT delete it even if you ask me to. My thoughts about other people just somewhat went down the drain in some aspects.
God, must need to blow off steam...I stand by what I say, and I don't even want to change that view. Humanity disgusts me at times.
god that felt so good to let off my head.
anyways, too lazy to read the Malcom X and Souls of Black Folk books for Sherrill [cool last name..double r double l] so I'm guessin that I'm just blogging. The song up there is by BBMak [again.]. I'm guessing that I listen to them too much. but then again, their albumns are at the top of my playlist and I'm not able to click anywhere else because their songs are just SO ADDICTIVE. >< I guess I'm more into pop music again..NOO!! must get back into PUNKROCK/POPROCK genre. I feel so ..ecky.
caution: contains bad language from this point on. If you don't want to feel offended get the ...out. thank you. see the little [x] on the corner? CLICK IT.
Anyways, today was the great Sweep for Wash. God, how much did I hate it? Words fail me. I hated the whole freaking thing, from the beginning to the end. Especially the end... I was so fucking pissed off.
People didn't do CRAP. So much for cleaning eh? Come back for the shit when we go back UP the hill. Shit, if you see it now, why do you not just PICK THE DAMN THING UP and put it in your bag? God, a piece of paper is not going to break your fucking back. Okay, after that I was already kinda mad at people.
Then after a long time, Kenneth got [haha got? more like dragged] me, benton and G to help him clean up. Jackie and Chut came along and I was happy for a minute because hey, I got people I actually like to work with. but then they just stood around and FUCKING TALKED. sure, they swepped, but for like 1 minute at trash? then they just FUCKING stood around and did SHIT. I understand why the leaders were so pissed off today. Nobody does fucking crap but stand around and talk. So me and Kenneth just went down the street and cleaned up trash by ourselves.
The most annoying thing came after we came back up. Benton and somebody else, forgot, said that they were going to go down the street and clean up. HOLY FUCKING G*D. I just wanted to hit him [for the first time since I knew him] so fucking hard. WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU THINK WE JUST FUCKING DID? I really yelled at him. then he said he was going to "perfect it". I just go so pissed off that I took a rock and threw it and it hit a side of a car. I was aiming for the sidewalk but it bounced.
I couldn't stand the shit anymore and just fucking threw my crap on the side of the sidewalk and sat down. After a while, just looking at people just made me even madder. So I decieded I needed air or else I was going to punch something. [like a car.]So I went down to Cala and bought food and ate some on the way back. I was a pissy mood for the rest of the day. I eventually spoke at them after ignoring most of them, but I wasn't as happy as I started out. Remind me to work with people who I don't know the next time. Wait, cross that there will NEVER EVER be a next time. I almost wanted to punch the wall , but it wasn't worth it.
Tommorow MUST get better. If it is just a repeat of today, I'm just going to leave early. There isn't a single reason for me to stay and the only reason I stayed today was because I had to sign out. If I didn't have to do that, I would've just left to go home when I went to Cala. I don't have to take this crap.
To the people reading this and if it happened to be you that I was pissed off at:
Screw apologizing to you folks. If you read my post above you will know that I'm right in a sense. I might've not be justified in yelling at you, but what you people did [or lack of] can really set somebody like me off. If you planned to just come here and socialize, go right ahead but atleast be doing SOMETHING while you're socializing. You might think I'm taking things too seriously, and maybe I am, but that doesn't mean that what YOU are doing is CORRECT. If you wanted to have fun, then have your FUCKING fun AFTER the damn clean up. Just think, how would you feel if you had to do work while others didn't? And for no reason?
If you think I'm being difficult, well so are YOU. The only reason I'm typing this out is because I feel like having people understand why the FUCK I was so mad today, and that there was a REASON. If you know me AT ALL, you would know that I ALWAYS HAVE A REASON when I'm mad at people. I NEVER get mad at somebody for no reason. I'm not apologizing for this post and I will NOT delete it even if you ask me to. My thoughts about other people just somewhat went down the drain in some aspects.
God, must need to blow off steam...I stand by what I say, and I don't even want to change that view. Humanity disgusts me at times.
god that felt so good to let off my head.
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